Wednesday, November 21, 2018

Michael Hafftka, Kali Yuga, 1977

Michael Hafftka, Kali Yuga, 1977. 

After I published Revelation on, my dear friend Michael Hafftka saw it in his feed and sent me his painting, Kālī Yuga, 1977. Kālī Yuga is 36-inches by 28-inches, oil on canvas, painted in 1977. Michael Hafftka is an eminent figurative expressionist painter, and our friendship dates back to the mid-1990‘s. 

As you read Revelation and meditate on Hafftka’s Kālī Yuga, his painting will atavistically provoke you: Mahakālī  dancing. 

The name Kālī means Kāla, or force of time. Before creation, when all was darkness, the blackness of Kālī evokes the beginning: initiates understand that the sinister feminine was first. Kālī's name derives from a legend about Yama, lord of death, who fled upon hearing her name. Initiates of Kālī are contemptuous of death.

In esoteric doctrine, Kālī is the goddess of preservation, preserver of nature. Her eyes are red in rage, her wild black hair is the freedom of nature from civilization. The signs of the Sun, the Moon and Fire are beneath her third eye ājnā, driving forces of nature. As Kālī Ma she is the primordial Mother Goddess of the Tantric traditions.

Classical representations of Kālī depict her wearing a garland of 108 human heads, an auspicious number in Hinduism and the number of countable beads on a japa mālā rosary. Kālī is sometimes depicted with 50 heads: the number of the letters of the Sanskrit alphabet.

Sanskrit is the language of dynamism, each letter representing a form of energy, a form of Kālī. She is the mother of language and mantras. A garland of 50 skulls denotes dominion over words and thought.

Overflowing the veils of Māyā  Kālī is nirguna, beyond nature, beyond prakṛti. Nirguna means "without form or qualities." Dualism between ātman and Brahman is obliterated. Kālī is an incarnation of Parvati, the consort of Lord Shiva the Destroyer.

Kālī is a dark goddess because she is Brahman in an unmanifest state. Kālī Ma exists beyond the ends of the multiverses. Human concepts of color, goodness, badness, are inapplicable.

In classical representations Kālī's tongue is extended in shame (lajjā) as she realizes that she is dancing atop her consort Shiva. Her earrings are the corpses of dead boys as she prefers childlike disciples. Her forehead is luminous, dispensing ambrosia.

Wearing a skirt of human arms, Kālī assumes the kárma of the donors who contributed them. Four-handed Kālī brandishes a sword, a trishul trident, a severed human head and a skull-cap kapala to catch blood, which Kālī drinks to intoxication.

The sword severs the bondage of ignorance and ego, symbolizing knowledge. The human head is the ego which must be vanquished to attain mokṣa. Her two right hands signal the abhaya (abhayamudra, “fear not,” “dauntless”) and varada (“bestower of boons”) mudrā forms. 

As Mahākālī the Goddess is synonymous with the totality of BrahmanMahākālī is the feminine variant of Mahākālā or “Great Time,” synonymous with death, an epithet of Shiva, her consort.

Portrayals of Mahākālī depict ten arms, each hand holding an implement of a given Deva: Mahākālī subsumes their powers and as Brahman she manifests them.

Emblematic of feminine power, Mahākālī is custodian of cosmic order, restoring balance. The goddess of revolutions, Mahākālī is the goddess of cycles, and so, of spacetime: the embodiment of Brahman. In Hindu legend, Mahākālī eats spacetime. In some representations Mahākālī is depicted with ten heads and ten legs.

As Dakṣiṇākālī, this goddess is the Mother. Dakṣiṇā is the offering to a priest before ritual, or a gift to a guru. Dakṣiṇākālī’s right hands are mudrās granting blessings or boons.

Dakṣiṇākālī is depicted with her right foot on the chest of Shiva, while Dakṣiṇākālī with her left foot on his chest is said to be Vamakali, worshipped by the marginalized: TantrikasHafftka’s interpretation of the Goddess is vanamarga, left-hand path.

Kālī was rampaging, destroying demons, so Shiva, fearing that Kālī would not stop before the multiverses were laid waste, laid himself down on the battlefield in her path. Seeing her consort beneath her calmed Kālī. The god Shiva was suffused in the grace of Kālī through her foot on his chest.

Surrendering his ego to Kālī, enveloped in mokṣaShiva was enchanted and he offered her austerities. Shiva is puruṣa, the unchanging aspect of reality, pure consciousness. In Tantra, fusing puruṣa and prakṛti yields samādhi: Brahman, ultimate reality.

The Mother in her terrible form is Śmaana Kālī, two-armed and black, standing on a corpse with a wine cup and a piece of rotten flesh in her hands. Worshipped by Tantrikas, devotees of Śmaana Kālī perform their austerities in the śmaan, the cremation grounds, to short-circuit orthodox processes and expedite mokṣa.

Tantrikas consider the goddess Śakti emblematic of energy, and Shiva of consciousness. As Shiva depends on Śakti, on energy, to fulfill his purposes in creation, in preservation and in destruction, Shiva by himself is an inert corpse and unable to act.

In the Mahanirvana-tantra, Kālī is one of the epithets of the primordial Śakti or Shakti, and Shiva extolls her:

“At the dissolution of things, it is Kāla [Time] Who will devour all, and by reason of this He is called Mahākāla [an epithet of Lord Shiva], and since Thou devourest Mahākāla Himself, it is Thou who art the Supreme Primordial Kālika.

Because Thou devourest Kāla, Thou art Kāli, the original form of all things, and because Thou art the Origin of and devourest all things Thou art called the Adya [the Primordial One] Kālī.

Resuming after Dissolution Thine own form, dark and formless, Thou alone remainest as One ineffable and inconceivable. Though having a form, yet art Thou formless; though Thyself without beginning, multiform by the power of Māyā, Thou art the Beginning of all, Creatrix, Protectress, and Destructress that Thou art.”

--Arthur Avalon (John Woodroffe), Mahānirvāna Tantra, (Tāntrik Texts), Chapter 4, Introduction of the Worship of the Supreme Prakṛti, Delhi, Motilal Banarsidass, (1913), 1920. 

Michael Hafftka, Kālī Yuga, Study, 1977, watercolor. 

Hafftka also completed a study of Kālī Yuga in watercolor.

The watercolor precedes Kālī Yuga, 1977. It was painted in 1977, but the different medium and colors communicate variant impressions. The watercolor helped Hafftka visualize Kālī Yuga, but it stands as a separate painting in his watercolor oeuvre. 

The flag on the left of the watercolor recalls the bars of the American flag, an impression which evaporates in the oil painting, where the flag is executed in deep blue and red. The flag in the watercolor is red and white. The tongue in both works is a coral snake, fatal serpent. The snake in Hindu iconography is not the serpent from Judeo-Christian Edenic legend.

Cultural flexibility is required to appreciate snakes in Hindu iconography: their implications in African systems of mysticism are utterly different. Dynastic Egyptians associated the cobra with Ra and Wadjet, patron goddess of Upper Egypt.

In Hafftka's watercolor androgyne Kālī reaches down to grasp an implicit snakelike phallus. In the oil painting the phallus is red, yet less noticeable, while it dangles over the yoni of the goddess. In the watercolor, testes are obvious, though less apparent in blue in the oil painting. 

Kālī, goddess of death, is a sexual goddess. Hindu Tantrikas and Tibetan adepts of the Vajrayana tradition are not mystified by the juxtaposition of death and sex. The orgasmic manipulations of the Vajra vehicle and the simulacra of the processes of dying are modalities of karmic energy. 

The diagonal bisection of Kālī's face is her androgynous nature: male and female, personifying Shiva and Śakti, consort of Brahman

Remember that the Shivalingam and the yoni of Śakti are emblematic of the totality of existence. Kālī is the Śakti of Brahman, universal feminine: Goddess. 

In the watercolor, Shiva reaches up with a left hand (three total arms and hands are depicted) to caress the left foot of the goddess, a hand which appears like a foot in the oil painting. In both paintings Shiva’s other left hand reaches out to Kālī’s right foot, Shiva’s limb being both arm and leg. This is figurative expressionism, Hafftka’s medium.

In the watercolor Kālī’s eyes (Sun and the Moon) look as normal as eyes can look in a Hafftka work, mirrors of the soul. In the oil painting Kālī’s eyes are blazing, characteristic of classical Kālī iconography. The third eye ājnā of the Goddess is redly enraged. 

In the oil painting Shiva’s heart chakra, anāhata, is subdued in orange. In the watercolor Shiva’s anāhata is radiating in red and pink, as it would be upon contact with the sublime foot of Kālī

The eater of spacetime is depicted in the upper right quadrant in both works, evocative of Hieronymus Bosch in the watercolor.

William Clark, Kālī Yantra, Public Domain, 2012. 

This is the yantra of Kālī for use in meditation. I consider this yantra overpowering for beginning practitioners of meditation. 

It should not be attempted until a sādhaka develops a grounding in Kālī iconography and affinity with her legendarium. 

Reading this article is a start. 

Monday, November 19, 2018


My glorious header banner done for me by my Ranger brother John Czarnecki

I updated my Patreon page. I hate begging, but if folks donate to me via Patreon, I will swallow my pride and accept. 

Amazon is killing me. Their KDP engine fails to parse pages correctly, so I am forced to send files to professionals for reformatting. It is not that expensive, and if they do what they promise, it is worth it to me. 

But I am spending money to earn money, and I will have to sell a lot of Kindle copies to make up the discrepancy. 

Few of us are rich. Certainly not me. I need help to make hardware upgrades and budget for a trip back to CONUS so the VA will refill my medications. This sounds so pathetic. 

It helps when folks buy my books. My royalties for eBooks are between $3.00-$6.00, so I am not getting rich. My royalties for print books are $10. Not getting rich that way, either. 

I need help, friends! If you are in a position to be a patron to this poor old veteran, my gratitude will be boundless!

Thank you!

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Metamorphosis: Forging an Airborne Ranger

Metamorphosis continues the narrative begun in A Tale of the Grenada Raiders. Metamorphosis is book 2 in Tales of the Rangers, and details the training pipeline that forges airborne Rangers and my training as a Special Forces medic. For those who complained that A Tale of the Grenada Raiders failed to explain where I came from or why I awoke in a safe house in Lima in 1991, this book answers those questions. 

Metamorphosis is now available as an eBook on Apple iBooks, Amazon Kindle and GooglePlay at $9.99.

Metamorphosis is now available from Amazon as a physical softcover in black and white at $24.99, and in full color from Barnes & Noble at $34.99

I made half the manuscript available free on GoogleBooks, so you can preview it and ensure that it is something that you wish to purchase.

Metamorphosis checks in at 260 pages long. It is stuffed with photos, so old Rangers will enjoy plenty of pics depicting the Usual Suspects that we all know and love.

I am grateful that it is done. I need to move on to Tales of the Rangers. That book is forecasted to drop in late 2019. It is already 777 pages long, so I will publish it in two volumes. 

Thank you for reading! 

Metamorphosis as a Barnes & Noble full color softcover: $34.99

Metamorphosis as an Amazon Kindle eBook: $9.99

Metamorphosis as a physical Amazon softcover: $24.99.

Metamorphosis on Apple iBooks: $9.99

Metamorphosis on GooglePlay: $9.99!

Metamorphosis is on GoogleBooks. Half the manuscript is available free. 

Thursday, November 15, 2018

Revelation: A Screed on Dreams and Worlds Without End

A revelation on metaphysics, cosmogony, quantum physics, Hinduism, Buddhism, Tantra, the ApocryphaKabbalah, the Western Mystery Tradition, dreams within dreams and multiverses without end. With art by the American figurative expressionist painter Michael HafftkaKālī Yuga, 1977. 

The entire text is available free on GoogleBooks: I made the complete text available for .pdf download. 

The only reason to spend $9.99 on this book is if you are kindly disposed towards me and wish to help me budget for a new Mac. I make anywhere between $3.50 and $6.50 in royalties per copy sold, depending on the platform. 

I also published Revelation on If you subscribe to that service, you can download it there.

Revelation is on GoogleBooks. FREE.

Revelation is on GooglePlay: $9.99 ($7.99!).

Revelation is a Kindle eBook: $9.99. 

Revelation is an Amazon paperback: $14.99. 

Revelation is on Apple iBooks: $9.99. 

Here is Hafftka's Kālī Yuga (1977) in large format. Thank you to Michael for permission to use this painting! 

Kālī Yuga 1977 36” X 28” oil on canvas in honor of the publication of my friend 
Estéban Trujillo de Gutiérrez's book Revelation: A Screed on Dreams and Worlds 
Without End

I wrote an analysis of Kālī Yuga. I am not an art history major, but I am a rule breaker and I know a bit about Kālī Ma

I included Hafftka's 1977 Study for Kālī Yuga, and the Kālī Yantra

Please share widely! Thank you for your eyeballs!

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

The Rosetta Stone of Memories

 Full text on GoogleBooks

With forwards by eminent American writers, this book is certain to twist your mind. If you lack the patience to read the front matter, scan forward to the preface. If you lack the patience to read the preface, scan forward to the narrative, which begins on page 205. This book is different from any other book you ever read. You have my word. 

My second book, The Rosetta Stone of Memories, is now available on Apple iBooks, and only on that platform. It was published on the auspicious date of 11-11-2018, Veteran's Day: my birthday. 

This book is priced at $9.99. I pulled the title from Amazon, as their Kindle Direct Publishing (KDP) rendering engine cannot correctly parse the pages. I also pulled the print version from Amazon. 

I also pulled this title from GooglePlay. Not because they did anything wrong. The errors were mine alone. I also pulled it from GoogleBooks. 

Metamorphosis and Revelation are the two books that are included in The Rosetta Stone of Memories. Rather than selling Rosetta Stone as a monstrous book of 490 pages, I am publishing its contents separately as Metamorphosis and Revelation. It only makes sense. 

Rosetta Stone is an organizational mess. I made a bad decision and placed no fewer than 35 literary quotations at the front of the book. 

In Revelation, those quotes are now at the rear of the book, where readers can consult them or ignore them at their whim. Readers will no longer have to scroll past them before they get to the actual book content.

I appreciate every single one of you, my cherished readers! Thank you for reading my work!

Doc T sends. 

You can find my books on Apple iBooksA Tale of the Grenada Raiders is $14.99.

Here is the link to A Tale of the Grenada Raiders, Metamorphosis, and Revelation, on GooglePlay. They are all priced at $9.99. 

Here is A Tale of the Grenada Raiders in softcover from Amazon at $64.99

Here is A Tale of the Grenada Raiders as a Kindle eBook at $14.99

Sunday, June 24, 2018

Facebook Banned Me

Facebook censors conservative voices. 

This is my rant page at I post commentary on conservative news curated from Drudge and Google. As you see, it has a mere 737 likes. This is no mistake. Facebook has the page under a species of shadowban, they limit the reach of my posts, and they ensure that nobody sees my posts unless you specifically subscribe to them. Will you permit Facebook to tell you what you can read?

I ask you to Like the page. Subscribe to its feed. If you do not like it, you can always unsubscribe, or just ignore my posts. My bet, if you are a conservative, is that you will stay and join a very elite audience. We welcome you. 

When Facebook bans free speech like this, we are one step closer to Police State America.

Facebook's methods are transparent They pick us off, piecemeal, as each of us can say, "it sucks to be him, but nobody is bothering me." And we continue to live our lives. One by one, quietly, unnoticed, we are silenced.

Facebook can block me, but they cannot make me shut up about it. I will make their ban stick in their throat to the extent that I legally can.

Scroll down to learn how to file an FTC Complaint. When Facebook can label commentary like this "hate speech," we surrender our right to free speech. As you can see, I hate no one. I do not like criminals, but it is not yet mandatory in America to love criminals. Under no rational standard can this commentary be called hate speech.

This is what happens when Facebook relies upon the Southern Poverty Law Center (SPLC) for its hate speech standards. I ask you to take the time to file a complaint on my behalf. Soon, it will be your turn, and Facebook will block your right to free speech as well.

For those of you who have already been blocked by Facebook censors, file an FTC Complaint every time. Every time. It is the only form of redress that we have, until we are banned from Facebook entirely. Facebook will gradually ban all conservative speech. Do not give them the satisfaction. File complaints! Or lose your right to speak freely. 
Here is a cleaned up revision of the commentary that got me banned from Facebook:

"I am not surprised that this community, which voted Trump 2:1, is generous with the children of illegal aliens. They are Christians. 

Our laws must be followed. Illegal aliens are criminals. They should do the responsible thing and do whatever will get them straight with the law, just as you or I would do. 

They victimize their own children when they break the law. 

Illegal immigration is not a human right. We should show mercy when possible, but illegal aliens have the option of migrating legally, just like everyone else. Nobody should expect to be rewarded for line cutting. Immigrate legally, or go back to your countries of origin. 

Ankle monitors are a good solution. After a hearing, they should be expelled. What they do with their children, citizens or not, is up to them."


When Facebook bans us for speaking words like this, it imposes standards that it has no right to impose. It is true that Facebook is a private company, and they can categorize content on their service in any way that they like. They can ban anyone, and they can use any pretext whatsoever to do it. And they do. 

Facebook, like YouTube, like Twitter, is a communications utility. We have laws to regulate communications utilities. It is just a matter of time before Facebook is subject to those laws like every other communications utility in America. In my complaint to the FCC, and my complaint to the FTC, I demanded that Facebook be regulated like a communications utility. 

These companies, these bastions of neoliberal orthodoxy, YouTube, Facebook, Twitter, all need to be broken up under antitrust laws. They are controlling too much discourse, and wielding too much unelected power. And they are discriminating against conservatives, suppressing conservative commentary. 

I thank you for your support!

May God bless President Trump, and may God bless the United States of America.


Here is a screen shot of my rebuttal to Facebook. 

And here is Facebook's response, when I tried to submit my rebuttal. 

I then spent an hour looking for a way to file a protest with Facebook. I could not find one. I still have not found a way to file a complaint with Facebook. If you know how to do this, please let me know. Thanks. 

It is long past time for the FCC to regulate Facebook, YouTube and Twitter like communications utilities! No private corporation should be able to censor conservative voices. 

Not in our America. 

Update 2

I filed a complaint with the FTC, the Federal Trade Commission. You can file your own complaint by clicking on the link below. 

Here is the text of the complaint that I filed using the Complaint Assistant. It took about five minutes, including a survey upon the completion of the complaint. 

Here is the FTC's email confirming the receipt of my complaint, assigning it reference number 97134209. 

And that is where this rests, for now. When I hear back from the FTC, I will update this page further. 

If you have ideas to help push this complaint against Facebook further, please post them in the comments below. 

Thank you for reading, and thank you for sharing!

Monday, June 18, 2018

Another Letter to POTUS 45

Stephen Trujillo
Cocoa Beach, FL 32931

Bangkok, Thailand 10320

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June 18, 2018
President Donald J. Trump
The White House
1600 Pennsylvania Avenue
Washington, DC 20500

Dear Mr. President:
I am a 100% permanently and totally disabled veteran retired in Florida and in Bangkok. 

Many years ago, I applied for Social Security Disability Insurance (SSDI), expecting that I would be approved as most permanently and totally disabled veterans are. 

I was denied because the IRS failed to credit my tax account with sufficient Social Security work credits. This was an IRS error.

I tried to fix this problem for the past 11 years. I spent thousands of dollars dealing with the IRS, and I am still not certain that the work credit deficit is repaired. They are impossible to deal with. 

I contacted the state of Florida veterans assistance office, and they referred me to Senator Rubio’s office. There has been no progress, no developments, on my case for the past six months. They say that they are awaiting a response from the IRS. 

Can you please refer my case to somebody who can fix this problem for me? I have lost more than $120,000 in SSDI benefits that should have rightfully been mine, and I see no hope that I will receive SSDI before I die. My health is not good, the VA assures me that I can have a stroke at literally any time. 

I wish to get this SSDI problem fixed before I die, so that my wife can have some income after I pass.

Thank you very much. 

I thank you for turning our Republic around. You are the best president in American history, and I am delighted that I voted for you. 

If I can be of assistance to you in any fashion, please command me. My oath of service has no expiration date. 

Rangers Lead the Way, and De Oppresso Liber. 

May Almighty God protect you and your family as you save the Republic. 

Sincerely yours,  

Stephen G. Trujillo

Cocoa Beach FL 32931

Bangkok, Thailand 10320

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